Anger never benefits us
Anger may try to imprison me today, but I hold the key that opens the door to freedom and peace.
-from Daily Meditations for Practicing the coarse
Well it's Friday, amazing how quickly time passes, especially once December arrives. I am not ready for Christmas. Yes, I have alot of my holiday shopping done, and the house is decorated. But still there are so many things that I want to do. I still need to make out Christmas cards and send them out, wrap presents and put them under the tree, make candy cane reindeers to give to everyone at work and of coarse bake lots of cookies! Did I mention I am going to be alone this year for Christmas. Yep, my wife is leaving to visit her parents. Yes, I was invited, several times to join her. But I have this weird thing about being with other people's family for Christmas. I myself have a small family and we don't have many traditions. I have tried being with my significant other's family for the holidays. And I was always welcomed with open arms. Even though I was just a "friend", never the wife. Why is it that grown adults cannot even be open and honest to their parents? Now granted, I have never come out to my mother and said "Mom, I'm a Lesbian". But I don't have to. My actions show who I am. I don't try to hide anything. I don't lie and say "my friend". And the funny part is even when you don't come out and tell them, THEY KNOW! They aren't stupid. When you haven't brought a boyfriend home in the 27 years that you've been alive and you never talk about guys, what you don't think parents pick up on that? Now I'm just rambling.
Anyway, this year I will be alone on Christmas eve and Christmas. Unless I talk my brother into coming over and hanging out with me. Which I'm sure he will do, but it won't be anytime in the morning. And I just don't know how long I can wait to tear into my presents! :-) Yes, I am 28 years old, put I still love Christmas and presents and stockings and carols and reindeer and santa! I am still a kid a heart, probably because I grew up entirely too fast! But that's a whole different story.
Right now I am at work. I am supposed to be creating a new website. Right now I am just waiting on the Logo to be emailed to me. I am not a professional website designer. But I was hired to do websites and e-commerce. I have created 3 websites for this company in the last year. The first was a trial and the second is still posted, but my boss get's tired of the same old thing and wants something new. Which is fine by me. But it's going to take some time. I need at least 2 weeks to create a website from scratch. I don't even know HOW I do it, really! They sent me to some Macromedia classes and it was enough to get me going. Sometimes I get discouraged and I just have to stop. Then other times, I can solve anything, I don't know how, it just comes to me. So I am banking on my creative juices to start flowing...hopefully by next week! Right now I have produced a "sample" page for my boss to look at. Of coarse, he hated the font I choose, which in my opinion was the BEST thing going for it. But he acutally liked the layout. So we are getting somewhere. But again, I can't do much without the company logo. Which no one can seem to agree on around here, it changes entirely too much. And it has to be approved by the big guys and they are hard to please. So I am typing away on my blog, and nobody will probably ever even read this! And my eyes hurt from staring at the computer screen for 8 hours straight. Since I quit smoking about 5 months ago, I don't take any breaks and I sit here all day and look at this stupid computer monitor. By the time I am 40 I will need glasses and will have carpel tunnel. Hopefully, I will figure out what I want to do with my life before then, make some kick ass money and not have to stare at the computer screen for more than a few hours at a time. Oh ya, and be my own boss!
Well that's it, I'm tired. I'm ready to go home and play with all my animals and maybe watch a movie. I hope you all have a great weekend. I will be back on Monday!
-from Daily Meditations for Practicing the coarse
Well it's Friday, amazing how quickly time passes, especially once December arrives. I am not ready for Christmas. Yes, I have alot of my holiday shopping done, and the house is decorated. But still there are so many things that I want to do. I still need to make out Christmas cards and send them out, wrap presents and put them under the tree, make candy cane reindeers to give to everyone at work and of coarse bake lots of cookies! Did I mention I am going to be alone this year for Christmas. Yep, my wife is leaving to visit her parents. Yes, I was invited, several times to join her. But I have this weird thing about being with other people's family for Christmas. I myself have a small family and we don't have many traditions. I have tried being with my significant other's family for the holidays. And I was always welcomed with open arms. Even though I was just a "friend", never the wife. Why is it that grown adults cannot even be open and honest to their parents? Now granted, I have never come out to my mother and said "Mom, I'm a Lesbian". But I don't have to. My actions show who I am. I don't try to hide anything. I don't lie and say "my friend". And the funny part is even when you don't come out and tell them, THEY KNOW! They aren't stupid. When you haven't brought a boyfriend home in the 27 years that you've been alive and you never talk about guys, what you don't think parents pick up on that? Now I'm just rambling.
Anyway, this year I will be alone on Christmas eve and Christmas. Unless I talk my brother into coming over and hanging out with me. Which I'm sure he will do, but it won't be anytime in the morning. And I just don't know how long I can wait to tear into my presents! :-) Yes, I am 28 years old, put I still love Christmas and presents and stockings and carols and reindeer and santa! I am still a kid a heart, probably because I grew up entirely too fast! But that's a whole different story.
Right now I am at work. I am supposed to be creating a new website. Right now I am just waiting on the Logo to be emailed to me. I am not a professional website designer. But I was hired to do websites and e-commerce. I have created 3 websites for this company in the last year. The first was a trial and the second is still posted, but my boss get's tired of the same old thing and wants something new. Which is fine by me. But it's going to take some time. I need at least 2 weeks to create a website from scratch. I don't even know HOW I do it, really! They sent me to some Macromedia classes and it was enough to get me going. Sometimes I get discouraged and I just have to stop. Then other times, I can solve anything, I don't know how, it just comes to me. So I am banking on my creative juices to start flowing...hopefully by next week! Right now I have produced a "sample" page for my boss to look at. Of coarse, he hated the font I choose, which in my opinion was the BEST thing going for it. But he acutally liked the layout. So we are getting somewhere. But again, I can't do much without the company logo. Which no one can seem to agree on around here, it changes entirely too much. And it has to be approved by the big guys and they are hard to please. So I am typing away on my blog, and nobody will probably ever even read this! And my eyes hurt from staring at the computer screen for 8 hours straight. Since I quit smoking about 5 months ago, I don't take any breaks and I sit here all day and look at this stupid computer monitor. By the time I am 40 I will need glasses and will have carpel tunnel. Hopefully, I will figure out what I want to do with my life before then, make some kick ass money and not have to stare at the computer screen for more than a few hours at a time. Oh ya, and be my own boss!
Well that's it, I'm tired. I'm ready to go home and play with all my animals and maybe watch a movie. I hope you all have a great weekend. I will be back on Monday!
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