Scarletpappion

Short & Sweet

2005-11-14T16:32:00.000-05:00

I haven't had much to post about lately, hence the reason for not posting. I did find my best friend from High School through myspace. Unfortunately our schedules seem to conflict and we haven't had much time to talk. Her free minutes don't start until 11pm my time and by then I'm usually sound asleep. And when I get off work, she's still working. Maybe one day soon I will get a chance to catch up with her.

In the mean time, I have been working, working, working. So far 8 days straight and 4 more days to go before I get 2 days off. And with my luck, my boss will ask me to work Saturday for our Pre-Christmas Sale. Even though the $$ would be nice, I think I'm going to pass. I already cancelled last Saturday's hair appt and re-scheduled for this Sat. So as far as I'm concerned, I have other plans. ;-)

2005-10-19T15:47:00.000-05:00

Here's Hayden in his "Man Eating Shark" costume.

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I couldn't resist seeing how Tomas would look in the "Fairy" costume....I think he likes it.

2005-10-19T15:44:00.000-05:00

Happy Halloween! Here's my chi in his "fairy" costume.

Last Ride of the Season

2005-10-18T16:39:00.000-05:00

Sunday morning me and Suz met up with 4 of our girl friends and went on our last ride of the season. Our destination: Brown County. Susan had a "special route" picked out that was supposed to be a nice scenic ride to Brown County. We headed out at 10am. We had 2 inexperienced riders with us, so I made sure to keep everybody together by riding the tail end. We headed up US31 for about 35 miles. About 15 miles into it, this car got between us. Three in front and three in back. One our friends Betsy is a little older and has arthritis and a few other ailments. She was the last of the 3 in front. The car between us decided to ride on her tail. I was FURIOUS!! I was trying to give him hand signals to back off, but it was no use. I didn't want to leave my post, as I was with the 2 inexperienced riders. When we finally came to a stop, me and my friend got beside the car and tapped on his window. He rolled it down and we told him he needed to BACKOFF! He was a little upset, and my friend managed to get in front of him to keep him off Betsy's ass. He at least listened and kept a safe distance for another 10 miles or so before he finally turned off. I don't understand why people have to tailgate motorcyclists. Back the fuck up and be considerate. It's not that much to ask!

Anway, we continued until we got to the turn that was supposed to take us along windy roads and into Brown County. We rode and rode and finally stopped to figure out we were lost. Somewhere Suz made a wrong turn. We were in a little podunk town called Sweet Water. Suz called her friend that gave her the directions and he said we missed the turn, so we backtracked and thought we found the right route. The road was beautiful and curvy, but we were still lost! We decided to just ride it out and see where we came out at. About 1.5 hours later, we ended up on US31 and headed north to get back home.

The ride was fun, even though we didn't get to our destination. I wished we could have ridden a little faster, but the 2 girls in front of me were VERY Slow and I had to be on the brakes just to give them plenty of room. I sure wish Suz would go on a ride with just me. It seems that I am not good enough for us to go on a nice ride together. She always has to have other people around. Her other group of friends that are guys ride way too fast! I can keep up, but I don't like the pressure. I just want to ride at a nice pace, enjoy the scenery and ride a moderate speed. Maybe next year I can find a friend that know's how to ride..not too slow and not too fast. Yeah, I know, I'm dreamin...

Update

2005-10-10T17:26:00.000-05:00

Funny how as soon as I write about how things aren't going my way (blah, blah, blah). The next thing I know, work is going great, I'm selling bikes from out of nowhere and I have been busy as a bee. (which is all I wanted) There's nothing worse than sitting at work for 8 hours with nothing to do. I have a really great job, but sometimes I run out of things to do. As of now, I am happy, working away the day with no complaints!

As for Suz, things have been pretty good. She went to her ex's house today to "help" move appliances. I have a little peeve with this ex. It just so happens she is always in the middle of me, my loves and my friends. She is a Drama Queen. She thrives on attention. It was really hard for Suz to get over this girl. Even though they were broken up and Suz and I started dating, we all used to go out together. They also used to live next door (apt's) to each other. Anyway, one night Chelsi called her over and turns out Suz was trying to kiss her. Since that night, I have never trusted them two alone together. I used to get really jealous and tell her she couldn't be alone with her. She knows how I feel and even to this day, I don't feel it's necessary for her to be hanging out with Chelsi. So I called Suz at 2:00 and she was there "watching motocross". Her plans were to hang out there until 5:00 then go to work meeting she has at 6:00. She said she would call on her way out. Well it's 5:40 and no call. Inside I'm a little jealous. But then sometimes I hope she fucks up and that's my way out. Sometimes I just want to be single in my own space. Alot of that is my selfishness. It's all about what I want to do. Then I think to myself: Will I be as miserable as I was when we first broke up? I didn't eat, barely slept and was filled with anxiety. I doubt I could feel that way again, after all we have been through. But when I think of leaving her, my heart hurts and I think of all the great times we had. In the end, it will come down to her. She has a cheating past and I know that. But if I find out about any current slips, you can bet I will be packing my bags and hitting the road.

A little better

2005-10-06T16:53:00.000-05:00

This last week has wreaked havoc on me. I have been moody, selfish and down right rude. Work has been getting the best of me and by the time I get home I am cranky and tired. Funny thing about my job. It's a great position and I am lucky to have it. Yet I complain to no end and find fault in almost everything. In hindsight I can see it clearly. But this week I was blind. It seemed like nothing could go right. Realisticly, it was things weren't going MY way. How and When did I become so selfish and self centered??? I go home at night and I am rude to my wife and I offer her no love or support. I try to hurt her, because I am feeling hurt. I close up and I won't talk about anything. I sit on the couch smoke a bowl and watch tv for the entire night. She sits next to me working her p/t job on MY laptop all night. I can't even use my own computer. She is on it every night, all night. Working for a company she says she's part owner. She has never received any pay. She works easily 3-4 hrs a night, every night. It's old. I'm bored. I'm selfish. I want to spend quality time with her. I would love for us to do Yoga together or go for a walk, or watch a movie and just enjoy each other's company. When we talk about it, we both get defensive. She says all I do is get high and watch tv. I say all she does is work, work, work. So we both shut up and agree to disagree.

I do love her. I know she loves me. We need to spice up our lives. When I get bored with work, life or relationships I have this habit of finding somewhere new. Last time I packed up and moved to Indy. Sometimes I think about going home. But I can't just leave her and all our animals. I can't just quit my job and walk away from everything this time. I did it before and I thought I would find happiness. But running away does not equal happiness. That is something I must find within myself and accept who I am and whom I have chosen to love. I made too many promises to just walk away.

Today I am feeling a bit better. I don't feel so hopeless. I don't want to be cold and hurtful. I want to be loving and cherish our relationship. I guess all I can do is start from here....

Vegas

2005-10-01T18:18:00.000-05:00

Well I just spent an hour writing this post and hit the spell check button. The entire post is gone! I can't believe this! I don't think I will be re-typing all that anytime soon. I will say this: Vegas was a blast. We ate, drank, went to a show, went on a Sunset horseback ride, gambled, won, lost, won and left. It went by too fast, but it was worth every cent.

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A view from the canyon.

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This picture was taken by Hawk one of the "cowboys", it's the best one he took out of 10 pictures. He couldn't even get the whole horse in the picture.

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View from the horse trail.

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Me with Teddy Bear.

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Driving to Red Rock Canyon, view from the car.

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Suz driving us to Red Rock Canyon for Horseback riding.

2005-10-01T17:22:00.000-05:00

Susan's b-day cake, delivered to the room.

Going to Vegas

2005-09-14T17:38:00.000-05:00

Tonight I give Susan her birthday present. Saturday morning we are leaving for Las Vegas! I have been so excited for the last 2 months. I couldn't share this information, in case she happened to come across my blog. Originally I was going to keep it a secret until Friday night. Now I feel like I want to tell her so we can be excited and talk about it for the next few days. I made a really cool presentation for her. Basically I will hand her a box and inside she will find laminated cards that I made telling her all the fun things I have in store for her. The first card reads: We're going to Vegas, Baby! 2 days & 2 nights, anything your heart desires..is YOURS. The second card reads: We are flying out Saturday morning then heading to pick up our rental car so I can take her anywhere she wants to go. The third card reads: We are staying at the MGM Grand and have tickets to La Femme on Saturday night. The fourth card reads: Here are a few fun things we can do if you so desire: Indoor Skydiving, Cowboy Trail Rides or Indoor Cart Racing.

I have some more fun things planned to, but I to be spontaneous and make sure it's something she wants to do too. So that's it. Now I just have to get through the next few days and we are outta here for some fun!

2005-09-07T12:35:00.000-05:00

Here's one of seven frogs we have in our pond. They are so cute when they sun on the Lilly Pads!

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Here's Jules, tired out from running around the backyard.

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Here's Chopper, looking cute for the camera.

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Here's Hayden..Look how big he's getting!!

2005-09-07T12:32:00.000-05:00

Me at the Top of the Fire Tower, taking my own picture..since Kat is scared of heights!

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Me looking down at Kat

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Kat looking up at me.

2005-09-07T12:27:00.000-05:00

Me and Kat at Brown County Park

Labor Day Weekend

2005-09-07T11:57:00.000-05:00

What a great weekend! Kat and I had a great time. Friday, true to form, we went to BW3's and enjoyed Wild wings and onion rings. They had 2 football games on and the guys were being obnoxious, so we didn't stay as late as we wanted. We headed to the local Starbucks and enjoyed a late night caffiene buzz. We talked for hours and got all caught up. The next morning Kat picked me up and we stopped at the Olive Garden for lunch. Next we took a drive to Brown County and made a detour to the National Park, where we stopped for some pictures and enjoyed our surroundings. Then we headed for the shops. Kat bought some really cute shirts and even though she tried to buy me one, I declined. We window shopped for a few hours and then stopped for some handmade ice cream. By then it was starting to get toward dinner time so we headed back to Indy. The drive back was a little silent. I was really sad that her visit was so short and went by so quickly. Now I can only look forward to my visit to Florida, hopefully sometime in January.

Sunday Suz and I went to Pet Smart and bought some more fish. We also bought the dogs special treats and lots of rawhide chewies. We got our grocery shopping out of the way and just wanted to relax and watch some t.v. for a few hours. We decided to eat out that night and went to Smokey Bones. We both had the pulled pork sandwich, which was absolutely delicious!

Monday morning we got up early and met some friends for a bike ride to Bean Blossom. What a great ride. The roads are curvy and the trees are beautiful. We rode over 100 miles and we had a great leader. He took us through alot of backroads that offered beautiful scenery. By afternoon, my butt was numb and I was ready for some lunch. Unfortunatley, everyone, except us, had plans that afternoon, so we broke off and went our own way. We stopped for lunch at Steak N Shake and had a cheeseburger and shared a Carmel Macchiato Milkshake. It was devine. Between the both of us, we coudn't even finish the shake. I was so full, I thought I was going pass out. We rode by the Apple Orchard to see if they were open (they weren't), then headed back home to recover. We kicked up our feet and relaxed until dinner time. Then I made my famous Ribeye steaks and Artichokes.

All in all, I had a great weekend. Thanks Kat for spending time with me and for that magnificent bottle of Merlot. I hope you had as much fun as I did!

It's been a minute..

2005-08-31T11:35:00.000-05:00

It's been a while since my last post. That's because I have been using most of my spare time to design my mom's website. I finally downloaded an ftp and retrieved the files from the original site. Then I decided I wanted to change it. I still have a ways to go, but at least I have it up and running. You can check it out here: Depth Perceptions . Comments and suggestions are always welcome. I'm thinking about changing the navbar, the starfish just aren't doing anything for me. Funny how fast the time flies when I am working on a site. I will look up and 3 hours will have passed by!

Anyway, my friend Kat is coming to visit on Friday. I am so excited! She has been gone for months now and we used to see each other every day! She was my faithful sidekick. We ate lunch together and talked about everything. Our friendship has now been reduced to emails and the occasional phone call. I miss her bunches and we are going to have some FUN! Friday we are going to BW3's and eat buffalo wings, onion rings and have some drinks, play pool, darts and video trivia. I'm thinking on Saturday we might go for a drive to Brown County, where they have alot of great little shops or maybe out to Raccoon Lake, hike and have a picnic. I guess the weather is going to play a factor. We won't get much hiking or picnicing done in the rain. Either way, I am looking forward to seeing her and can't wait for her to get here! Hurry, Kat, Hurry!

2005-08-29T10:55:00.000-05:00

Rubert from Survivor is in our store right now, looks like he is in the market for a new Harley!

2005-08-22T14:22:00.000-05:00

Cruisin..,.

2005-08-22T14:21:00.000-05:00

Me & Suz..cruisin..

2005-08-22T14:20:00.001-05:00

Cruisin....

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One of our Rides for the Dreamcruise. We had 8 people in this car!

Dreamcruise 2005

2005-08-22T13:46:00.000-05:00

We got to Michigan around 4pm on Friday. Already there were people "cruising" and lining the streets. Woodward Avenue was packed! We heard it had been going on since Tuesday. Friday was beautiful and Suz's dad took us out in his 1930 Ford Model A. We cruised the strip for about an hour then headed back to the house. Me and Suz decided to take Hayden for a walk down the strip. Practically every other person had to stop and pet him. You would think people have never seen a puppy! We pretty much just chilled out that night, had some dinner and got some rest for the next day.

Saturday morning we wake up to Thunderstorms and Rain!!! The night before they said 30% chance. Suz and I drove to Royal Oak and went shopping in a bunch of cool stores. We went to the farmers market and bought some fresh fruits and vegetables. I wish we had a market like that! So much to choose from and great prices! They have some really cool shops in Royal Oak. We went to the Gay/Lesbian store, but mostly it was filled with stuff for men. Suz wouldn't let me get a decal for my car. She say's that would only provoke people to key it. So we didn't buy anything there. Then we went to Funky 7, where bought Suz a few shirts and a belt buckle. I got myself some incense too. We shopped a few more stores, but they were very expensive! Then we headed back to the house and helped get dinner ready.

We had a great dinner of Italian Sandwiches, pesto pasta salad, cheese w/ truffle honey and crackers, asparagus and fresh fruit. After dinner we packed we cruised the stip and I took as many pics as I could. But it was getting dark fast. We had a Great time even though they closed Woodward at 9pm this year! I will try to get some pics up soon!

Sorry to cut this short, I'm on my lunchbreak and time is up!!

2005-08-18T17:08:00.000-05:00

Hayden, cooling off on the a/c vent. This is his favorite place to hang out.

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Kitty in the dog bowl. When she was a baby, she would sleep inside that bowl, now she barely fits!

2005-08-18T17:06:00.000-05:00

Fair Winnings and Coco Bongo!

Update

2005-08-18T13:10:00.000-05:00

Supercross the Movie was Great! I absolutley loved it and recommend it. It might have been a little cheesy, but I liked the story line and I think they did a good job on the movie. If you like SX, I say go see it!!

This weekend is the Dream Cruise in Michigan. We leave tomorrow morning and drive about 5 hours to Burmingham, MI. Suzy's parents live one block from Woodward Ave. where everyone "cruises" and that's where we will be staying. I have to sleep on the floor on an air mattress, but at least I get to be in the same room!! I'm sure her parents know about us, but it is never spoken of. I am debating whether or not to leave my ring at home. If they question me about it, I don't want to say something that might "offend" them. So it's best not to rub it in their face. (?)

Last year I took my camera and it somehow turned on inside the camera bag. By the time I took it out to take some pics, the battery was dead!! This year, I am bringing the charger. Hopefully I will be able to snap some goods pics to share!

I got my new computer yesterday and right now I am posting on my lunch break with my wireless connection. This is so cool! If I can pick up a signal in MI, I will try to post, otherwise it might be awhile before you hear from me.

Indiana State Fair

2005-08-15T16:57:00.000-05:00

We got a late start to the Fair on Saturday night. It took about 30 minutes to get in the fairgrounds and all the shortcuts were blocked off! We finally got inside around 8:30pm. First stop: Corn on the Cob. I wasn't too impressed. It was supposed to be Sweet corn, but it wasn't very sweet and it tasted a bit bland, even with the addition of pepper. Second stop: Corn dog, which we shared. It was absolutely delicious! I wish we would have got the foot long! But we wanted to pace ourselves. Third stop: Deep Fried Combo Basket which included (1) Snicker Bar, (2) Oreo's & (1) Reese's Peanut Butter Cup. We each ate an Oreo, then went for the Snicker Bar, which was by far our most Favorite and we wished we would have each just got our own! Then we shared the PB Cup. We found it to be a bit dry and not up to par. Fourth Stop: Deep fried Mozzerella Sticks - DELICIOUS! We ate what we could, about 2 each, wiped the grease from our hands and tossed the rest.

We decided to take a breather after that and head over to the games. I told myself this year we weren't going to go crazy on the games. But we did. By the end of the night I was holding 3 large animals and 2 small ones. The first win was on the bowling, where you have to get the ball to stay in the middle and not come back over the hump. Suz loves that game and after trading up 12 times, we got 2nd largest animal. I choose that dog from Family Guy. Next she shot some hoops and missed all 5 times. Then she played the waterguns and lost. After that was the toss the balls into the fish bowls. After 50 balls, we got 1 fish. That fish didn't have a very long life, we put it in our aquarium and the Tin Foil(s) ate it! Then we played Whack a Mole which is Suz's favorite. She won and then we played again and I won! That was 2 large animals!! Then we wasted our money on the frog toss and darts then called it a night.

On the way out we shared a Pineapple freeze and she bought me a Coconut Bongo. Which is this large coconut husk with a face and they fill it with a virgin Pina colada. That sucker was $9!!! I guess I should have asked before ordering! But I was happy and that's all that matters! LOL

All in all it was a short trip to the fair and we were back home by 11:30. We have 2 more free passes and may decide to go back for more greasy fair food this week!

Tonight we are going to see a sneak preview of Supercross the Movie. I will tell you if it's worth seeing tomorrow. I must have control. No popcorn, no sweets!!! We are supposed to get dinner first, so maybe I can have some willpower!!!

Friday

2005-08-12T15:18:00.000-05:00

There hasn't been too much happening with me lately, hence the lack of posts. The most exciting thing I have to share is I ordered my new computer. My stepdad bought it for me out of the kindness of his heart. After I vented to him about how badly I want/need a new computer. And how my current home computer does not support my Macromedia program. I really want to start designing websites in my spare time. I know, by the looks of this blog nobody could ever tell that I actually design and maintain 2 websites for work and also one for my mom. I don't do much with this blog and as it is, I post at work, which is a total no no. I think this will change once I get my new computer. I am going Wireless for the first time and I am so excited about it!

My stepdad let me get whatever I wanted, which was a costly mistake for him! I'm thinking I should have went with the 2Ghz processor, but I got 1.6 Ghz and 1Gb Memory, 80Gb Hard drive, Ultra sharp 15.4" display, 8x CD/DVD Burner, Windows XP Media Center with TV Tuner (with is basically Tivo, I can watch TV on my laptop), Wireless Network Card w/ Bluetooth, Netgear Firewall Wireless Router, 512MB Memory Key, Microsoft Works, Jukebox and 3 years of Symantic Anti-Virus. That's alot of shit! It better last me a LONG time!

I feel like a total geek. The highlight of my week, a new laptop! Woohoo! The Indiana State Fair is going on this week too! I think we are going on Tuesday or Wednesday and we are planning on eating everything we aren't supposed to. Deep Fried Twinkies, Oreos, Corn Dogs, Corn, Ice Cream and as much as our tummy's can handle before we get sick!

Weekend

2005-08-08T13:58:00.000-05:00

Even though I was a little under the weather, the weekend turned out to be alot of fun! Friday night we went to dinner with some friends and rode around downtown. It was absolutley crazy because it was the Brickyard 400 weekend. People were everywhere, bikes were everywhere. We rode the circle, which I could have done without, it was a huge mess of people, bikes and cars. We all made it out alive and headed south for a nice little ride. It sure felt great to ride and we had a pretty nice group of people. We rode until midnight and I was exhausted by the time I got home and went to bed.

Saturday I got my oil changed and met my brothers new girlfriend. She is so sweet and really beautiful. I am so happy he finally found someone! I really hope it works out. He just moved into a new duplex, so I went and bought him some housewarming goodies and then cleaned his apartment. It took me a few hours, but he was so happy and appreciative, it was worth it! That night I took Suz out for dinner then we went on our usual late not shopping adventure. We love grocery shopping at night. It beats getting up early Sunday morning to beat the rush!

Sunday we slept in late and I made us bacon & eggs for breakfast. That was a mistake. My stomach was upset all day from that bacon! I haven't had it in months, and South Beach diet says you can eat it sparingly. So I thought it would be a nice treat. It wasn't and I won't be making it again. Sunday evening I grilled Steaks and steamed Artichokes for dinner. Our favorite dinner of the week! Then we went to Rascals Fun Zone for one of her co-workers going away party and drove go karts, played video games and putt putt all night long. It was really fun! We decided to take our bikes there too. It was a beautiful evening and even though we missed our Season Finale of Queer as Folk, we know we can catch it On Demand!

All in all, it was a great weekend and I'm feeling back to my normal self again!

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I love it!

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Have a Great Weekend!

A Present for Me?

2005-08-04T11:02:00.001-05:00

I wasn't feeling very good yesterday. I decided to go home a little early from work and get some rest. By the time I woke up, Suz was just getting home from work. She comes prancing in the room telling me to get up and get my present. Present? I popped out of bed and went to the living room. There on the table was a Shoei Box.

Let me go back a few days. On Sunday we went to her work and I tried on several helmets. I have a funky shaped head and very few helmets fit me. She was getting frustrated with me, because every time I tried one on it was either too small or too big. We finally found the TZR. They only had a Medium in stock and it was just a little big. My Arai is a Quantum/f and is a size Large! I was in disbelief that I was a size Small in Shoei. So I was very suprised that she took the risk and ordered that helmet in for me.

So I opened the box and this is what she bought me. (see picture below) I was so excited! All of a sudden I started feeling a little better. We decided to cheat on our diet and have some take out Chinese for dinner and every since I have been feeling back to normal.

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My New Shoei TZ-R Halex

The change of one simple behavior can affect other behaviors and thus change many things

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Our behavior tells others and ourselves who we are. Frequently, we find ourselves behaving in ways that keep us stuck or embarrass us. Or we may feel deep shame for our behavior in a certain instance. Our behavior will never totally please us. But deciding we want to change some behavior is a first step.

Remember, imperfections are human and very acceptable. However, changing a particular behavior, maybe deciding to take a walk every morning rather than sleeping 30 extra minutes, will change how we feel about ourselves. And a minor change such as this can have a remarkable effect on our outlook, our attitudes.

The dilemma for many of us for so long was the fear we couldn't change. But we can. And we can help each other change, too.

One small change today - a smile at the first person I meet - meditation before dinner - a few minutes of exercise - will help me chart a new course. I will encourage another woman to join me in this effort too, and I will be on my way.

Excerpt from Timeless Wisdom

2005-08-01T12:13:00.000-05:00

His Name is.....Hayden!

New Addition

2005-07-29T14:20:00.000-05:00

I know, I know. We already have too many animals. Well we made our weekly visit to the pet store to buy another fish because my beautiful Butterfly fish died and so did my frog. We had a few fish picked out, but we couldn't get any help, so we went and looked at the dogs. That's where we found this little guy! His mother is supposed to be Bull Mastiff and the Father was a Samoyed. But I am beginning to wonder if they just made that up. Mastiff's are usually Brindle in color and Samoyed are White. Can anyone else see the resemblence??? Either way, we fell absolutely in love with him. We couldn't put him down. So even though we are already overloaded with animals, we decided to bring him home. I hope you all enjoy the pictures. I took 30 pics last night and it was hard to decide which ones to post. We haven't named him yet, so if anyone has any cool names they would like to suggest, I would love to hear it!

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Sleeping..ever so sweetly!

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Isn't he adorable???

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Happy Mom and a wet pup!

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First Bath

To Anonymous Blogger

2005-07-28T14:47:00.000-05:00

Ok, Anonymous Blogger. I have had just about enough of your sarcastic, rude comments!! You don't even have the balls to log in and identify yourself! You read all my entries and you leave your snide remarks for me to try to find. Get a Life! If you don't like my blog or my pictures, don't visit my page!!! And if you think you are so fucking hot, then identify yourself and let me Judge YOU!!! I don't need your two bit comments on how fat we are or you telling me my wife is "Bull Dyke". You stupid, ignorant asshole! So do us both a favor and don't come back here! You are not welcome!!!

2005-07-27T16:26:00.000-05:00

Yamaha Tech Area in the Pit

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Another view from the "S"s

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A view from The "S"s.

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Me & Suzy in the Pit Stands

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Tommy Hayden & Susan in the Pit!

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Crash at the Keyhole!

2005-07-27T16:22:00.000-05:00

Turn 11 - Pit Stands

Mid Ohio

2005-07-27T15:29:00.000-05:00

We got to Mid Ohio right around noon and set up camp then took off to check out the qualifying races. This year was pretty much the same as last year, just HOTTER! We walked to the track from the campgrounds and went right for the pit. They have a few nice stands over there with a nice corner and we hung out there for a bit. Then we went to turn 8 and layed the blanket out on the grass under a shady tree. I managed to find a little relief from the sweltering sun there. After qualifying we checked out all the vendor booths and headed back to camp.

For dinner we went to the Roadhouse Steakhouse. The food was much better than I remember! I had the Ribeye with a Sweet Potato and salad. I was starving from a long afternoon in the sun! I ate so much dinner, I didn't have room for any dessert. After dinner and drinks we headed back to camp. Now it was time to get through "The Gauntlet". Every year a bunch of guys block the road coming back to camp and try to get the women to show their boobs! This year we were in the back of truck and we pulled a fast one. I wrapped a blanket around Suzy and made it look like she didn't have anything on under it and had her sit in my lap. When we drove through I pretended I was trying to rip the blanket off, and we made it through unscathed! I have never flashed anyone! If I wasn't so ashamed of my midsection, I would probably do it, but not this year and I don't think there will be a next year!

That night we had our campfire and sat around drinking our beverages of choice. All night we listened to the screams and catcalls of inebriated. People were driving around in golf cart like crazies and women were flashing us as they went by! I would say camp finally settled down around 5 am.

Sunday was slightly cooler. We had a few rain showers, but luckily for us, when the big rain came, we were in the Parts Unlimited tent eating our Free Lunch! After lunch we went to the "S"s which has several nice turns. It was packed, but we watched the Superstock race from there and then headed over to the Keyhole for the Superbike races. One thing that sucks about going to the races is I miss so much of the race! I think next year I will watch it from the comfort of home. At least I can watch the entire race and be nice and cool!

Blog Deserter

2005-07-22T11:09:00.000-05:00

Not that many people noticed, but I have failed to post an update for the last week. Mainly this is due to the overload of work, but also I just haven't felt the desire to blog.

Tomorrow I'm going to Mid-Ohio for the Honda Superbike Races. Last year we had alot of fun, but Suz got sick and we didn't get party or stay up late on Saturday night. Hopefully this time we will have more fun and stay up late around the camp fire and I can drink a bottle of fine Merlot!

Usually we get to the track in the late morning and watch the qualifying races and shop all the vendors. This year we have Parts Unlimited VIP Tent passes in the Pit and get to eat and drink for free!! The pits are cool, because you get to see the riders and their bikes being prepped. I will try to get some good pictures.

Saturday night we all head down to the one and only steakhouse in the area. The wait is usually about an hour or 2, but the food is decent and we get to mingle with all the other race fans. That night we party and watch all the drunks burn the tires off their bikes and act like fools. Last year someone's motorhome was set on fire! We woke up and there was still smoke coming from it, the cops and the firemen were all around it and had the area taped off. Alot of those people are crazy! I prefer to just hang low, drink my wine and people watch!

That's it! Tonight we have to get food and pack our clothes, clean up the house and get some rest. Hopefully this weekend will be one to remember!

Shifting perceptions changes us completely

2005-07-14T12:34:00.000-05:00

No situation looks quite the same to any two observers. We came to understand this through our willingness to listen to others and surrender the ego's insistence on being right. This is not the same as asking for a different perspective for ourselves, though.

Some of us wonder how this can be. Surely, whatever we see is what is there. Right? Not necessarily. What we see is the absolute reflection of what our hearts are feeling. If it's love we're feeling, we'll see a situation that is hopeful and fulfilling. If it's fear, our vision will be profoundly clouded and our response will be agitated, angry and full of attack.

We might liken our behavior to having a split personality. Who we appear to be one moment may not resemble who we'll become with a small shift in perception. This tiny act can result in a huge change. We quite likely wish we could have a loving perspective all the time. With a little effort, we can.

I can see however I choose today. How I act will follow accordingly.
- from Timeless Wisdom

Let us all take a moment...

2005-07-13T14:51:00.000-05:00

It is impossible to overemphasize the immense need humans have to be really listened to, to be taken seriously, to be understood.
- Paul Tournier, M.D.

We need assurance that our presence has value to the lives of those around us at home, work, and play. Our self-worth should not be solely tied to someone else's attention to us or love for us; however, our personal being is validated and thus enhanced each time we have evidence of being fully listened to.

Just as we hunger for attention and validation, so do the many people sharing our travels at this time. And sadly, we're rushing through our experiences not very attentive to either the events or the persons who have engaged our involvement.

The choice to slow down, to honor the flowers, the loud and silent moments of the day, is ours. It's an expression of love for life, for ourselves and everyone we encounter if we take a moment to look and listen with our full being.

Each aspect of life is enriched when honored by a listening heart. Let's cherish this golden rule.
- from Worthy of Love

Something in the water?

2005-07-12T17:26:00.000-05:00

Today has just been one of those days! It seems everything I touch turns to shit! Funny how at times I can go months and not have a single problem at work. Then all of a sudden..BAM..problems are flying in every direction. The old me would have walked into my bosses office and quit on the spot. I hate conflict. Always have. I am a really nice person, most of the time. When I get upset, most people just back off and leave me alone. (if they know what's best for them)I didn't get upset today. I let it slide off my back. Forget about it. Tomorrow is a new day.

I called my mother the other day. Told her that I had lost 9 pounds on the diet she so desperately wanted me to follow. What was her reply? She says to me: "Muffy, if you can lose 50 pounds, I will give you $100." What the Fuck? Is this really necessary? Now she wants to PAY me to lose weight? She acts like I'm a fucking obese monstrosity!! I was a bit offended! I told her, how about I get to my "goal" weight and you buy me that laptop I have been wanting for the last 2 years!!! Unfortunately my "goal weight" is not skinny enough for her. So no deal! Actually she said When I get there, let her know and she will "think about it".

Enough of this. I'm going home now. Making a healthy dinner with a big glass of Merlot and a fat doobie! I should be back to my normal self in about 2 hours.

2005-07-11T15:01:00.000-05:00

Suzy's Chopper "Under Construction".

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Susan, riding the Dragon at Deals Gap (May '05)

Sexy Meme

2005-07-11T14:52:00.000-05:00

Taken from Sam
Everything that is true is in bold.
Everything else is false.
False statements I would LIKE to be true are in italics.

I have had sex while wearing a blindfold.
I have blindfolded someone else during sex.
I have had sex while watching porn.
I have had sex while surfing porn on the Internet.
I sleep better after sex.
There are some nights I cannot sleep without sex or masturbating.
The bed is NOT my most favorite place to have sex.
I am turned on knowing someone is watching me masturbate.
I have masturbated for someone over a web cam.
I have had sex over a web cam.
I will have sex with someone I just met if they turn me on. (not anymore)
I have been tied up during sex.
I have had sex with someone who was tied up.
I have dripped wax onto a lover’s body.
I have had a lover drip wax onto my body.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a leather fetish.
I have a tickle fetish.
I like being choked during sex.
I have had sex in a burning building.
I have erotic art on display somewhere in my residence.
I enjoy nudie magazines.
Erotic toys are a regular part of my budget.
I think PLAYBOY is tame, maybe even boring.
I have clicked on porn links in my email.
I know the difference between girl/girl and lesbian sex in porn.
I have watched more than one gay/lesbian porn video.
Much of what I know about sex comes from porn.
Interracial sex turns me on.
I think we should do more to understand the cultures of sex.
I would participate in sex research given the opportunity.
My current lover does not sufficiently meet my sexual needs.
I currently have a “crush” on someone of the same sex.
I have had sex at my place of employment.
I am often disappointed in my sexual relationships.
Some people might describe me as a nymphomaniac.
I am difficult to live with if I’m not having sex on a regular basis.
I sleep better with someone snuggled up next to me.
I have had sex under water.
I have had sex in the snow.
I have to have music playing while having sex.
I have had more than ten orgasms in one night.
I have flashed strangers.
I have given sex as a gift.
I have set-up a three-way for my lover.
I stopped during this list to have sex.

My Interview

2005-07-08T14:46:00.000-05:00

1. If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying "interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions -- each person's will be different.
3. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

1. When did you know you were a lesbian? Well I remember kissing and fooling around with 2 of my best friends when I was in 3rd grade. I remember my brother used to call me a Lesbian. But I never knew what it meant at the time. All through high school I dated guys. It wasn't until I was 20 that I thought to myself "I am so over men". And I swear about 2 weeks later this beautiful woman moved into the apartment next door. We drank some beers and shared some secrets, before I knew it we were kissing. About 2 weeks later I moved all my stuff into her apartment. That was my first ever relationship with a woman and it lasted 4 years. I would still be with her if I wasn't so selfish and insist on gallavanting across the country. Well, that's another story...

2. When did you first act upon this?Oops, I think I already answered that above.

3. Who was there for you during this time? Was it difficult?Honestly, I really didn't have anybody there for me. I confided in a few close friends. I never came out to my mother, but she knew (and knows) what's going on. She even called us the "Muffies". Even to this day, she calls me Muffy in public. I get so embarrased. Granted it stemmed from her calling me a Raggamuffin, because I used to be kind of a hippie. It was just the double meaning of the word. Luckily for me, I have never run into much conflict about my sexuality. Everyone has always been very understanding. And since I don't look the part, when I'm out, nobody would ever guess.

4. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?This is easy. Amsterdam. All the way! I have been wanting to visit since I first learned about the place. I know it may not be the best place to live, but anywhere I can go and order up the best smoke in the world works for me!! One day I will get there. And when I do, I may not come back!

5. Who was your first pet? You know, the one who told you that you were destined to be an animal lover! I remember having a parakeet when I was in 2nd grade and I also remember I used to feed this stray cat. I used to wait for that cat every night. I would sit out on the porch and sing "kitty, kitty, kitty". I would be very sad when he didn't show up. And when he did, I would feed him milk and whatever else I could find. I would pet that cat for hours. I remember when I was finished, my hands would be filthy. But I didn't care. I loved that dirty stray cat!

So far, so good

2005-07-06T17:20:00.000-05:00

Day 10 on the South Beach Diet. I have lost 6.5 lbs. Suz lost 6. My appetite is practically non-existant. Today I gave my egg omellete to a co-worker. It was all I could do to get one bite down. I have been eating my salad for lunch and a small dinner with a sugar free fudge bar for dessert. It's so weird not having hunger pangs. How could my appetite just vanish? Especially an appetite as voracious as mine was. I don't know and I don't really care. I still have cravings. I would be really happy with a Pizza. I bet I couldn't even eat 2 pieces. But I can dream about it! In 4 more days I go to Phase 2. I can start eating Whole Grain Breads and a list of other foods that were banned in Phase 1. I just hope I'm not doing this all for nothing. Or WORSE...end up gaining more weight than I started with! That will just piss me off!

It's been a strange day. I don't feel myself. I have been short and rude with people and customers. Oh well. Tomorrow is another day. Wonder if I'll feel like myself then?

Just because I can't EAT it, doesn't mean I can't THINK about it

2005-06-30T15:22:00.000-05:00

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core.
You often find yourself on the outside looking in.
Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works.
You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

Success

2005-06-29T11:23:00.000-05:00

Dinner and dessert were both a success last night! I was unsure how either one of them would turn out. The "Big Easy Shrimp" was really not that easy and the preparation time was about 1 hour. The taste was well worth the wait! I couldn't believe how many flavors I could taste in that dish. And I really couldn't fathom that I MADE IT! Along with the cajon style shrimp I made "Roasted Vegetables". I just cut up zuchini, squash, onion, peppers and asparagus into bite size pieces and tossed them with extra virgin olive oil and fresh ground pepper and salt. Put them in the oven for about 20 minutes and voila! It looked like alot of vegetables, but to my surprise, we ate every last bite! The shrimp dish ended up having quite a bit of leftovers, but we will be eating that for lunch with our salads. The Espresso Custard cups were delicious and even though I was too full to eat all my serving, Suz didn't have a problem finishing it off.

Again, I didn't get out of the kithen until 9pm. It's weird, how can it take the same amount of time every night? Suz told me I need to go to work early so I can get home earlier. But I don't think that's going to work. The traffic going both directions any earlier that when I leave would be a nightmare. And hopefully this cooking prep time will get alot easier once I get the hang of it.

I have noticed my cravings are going away and my appetite isn't nearly as strong. Even when I'm hungry, it's a different feeling than it was before. I used to be famished all the time. I would eat and an hour or two later I was starving again. But I know now that it was the crap I was eating. The quality of the food I am making now is superb. I'm just thankful we have both enjoyed the meals and we go to bed not feeling hungry.

Second Day on South Beach

2005-06-28T16:28:00.000-05:00

and already, it's killing me. I know the first few days are the hardest. About 2 hours ago I could barely keep my eyes open and I felt very anxious like I wanted to scream! Then my friend Kat emailed me. While I replied, I found a new burst of energy and have managed so far not to rip any fellow co-workers heads off...yet.

This new way of eating is quite a feat. I was in the kitchen making dinner, lunches, desserts and snacks until 9pm. This is my new workout: Cooking. I was exhausted by the time I finished. Tonight, it will be the same scenario. For dinner, "Big Easy Shrimp" with sauteed peppers, onions & vegetables. Dessert, which I made last night will be Espresso Custard Cups. They actually look pretty delicious. Let's hope they taste as good. Last night I made the Ricotta Vanilla Creme. I was afraid to try it. It looked a little unappealing. But after the first bite, it actually tasted...Good..Damn Good. I can also make the Cocoa, Almond or Lemon Ricotta Creme dishes.

For some reason, I wasnt' very hungry today. I ate my omellete with 2 pieces of Canadian Bacon at 10am and for lunch I ate my salad w/ peppers, spinach and feta cheese, a piece of Light Bologna rolled up with cheese a deviled egg and 5 pistachios. It's now 4:30 and I just ate my string cheese and the remainder of the pistachios. I still have a few things left that I will bring for tomorrow.

I can only hope this new way of eating will stick with me. I do enjoy the foods, but it sure does seem like alot of hard work. And I am quite the lazy person. But I want to be healthy. I'm not getting any younger. And it wouldn't hurt to shed these excess layers of fat. For now I am keeping my fingers crossed that both myself and my love can get through the first two weeks. Once we do, phase 2 and 3 should be smooth sailing.

I am...

2005-06-24T17:19:00.000-05:00

2005-06-22T17:41:00.000-05:00

A view from Arch Rock

2005-06-22T17:40:00.000-05:00

Ferry Ride Back to the Mainland.

2005-06-22T17:39:00.000-05:00

Saying goodbye..Fort Mackinac in the background.

2005-06-22T17:38:00.000-05:00

Me and Suzy on the Carriage Ride

2005-06-22T17:37:00.000-05:00

Carriage Ride

2005-06-22T17:36:00.000-05:00

Arch Rock

2005-06-22T17:34:00.000-05:00

Susan w/ a butterfly on her head

2005-06-22T17:31:00.000-05:00

Me and Maverick

Mackinac Island

2005-06-22T16:57:00.000-05:00

What a great vacation! We left Thursday night and drove until midnight, found a Red Roof Inn and got some much needed sleep. While we were at the lobby desk getting our room, some drunk guys come in and say they lost their key card. This is happening right as the clerk is telling us our room number and showing us how to get there. At this time I notice one of the guys leaning over and looking at the room number. We get up to our room and the first thing we noticed is the message light blinking on the phone. It was an invitation to room 107. They wanted us to come down at 1am and drink beer. We ignored the message. About 10 minutes the later the phone rings again. We didn't pick it up. We turned out all the lights and fell asleep. The alarm was set for 8am, so we could take showers and get an early start. I woke up, went to the shower and turned on the hot water. A few minutes later I put my hand under the water; it's still cold. I try again and again...still cold. I call the operator. She tells me "Sorry, we are having problems and the entire hotel is out of hot water". A little peeved, I went ahead and washed up with cold water and headed out to pay for the room. Now I'm at the front desk and not too happy that I didn't get a shower. The clerk offers me 1/2 off my room. I accept. She starts talking to her co-worker about the construction workers and I interupt "you mean the guys in room 107"? She looks at me confused and I tell her the story. She ends up refunding the entire night. So I saved $70 on a crappy hotel room. I was thinking what a start to our vacation!

We got to the tip of the mitt around 1pm and took the Catamaran Super ferry across to Mackinac Island. The day was a little overcast and the ride over a bit chilly. We found our friend and dropped our packs off at her apartment. We decided to have some lunch and look through the many shops. That night we met our friends for dinner at the Euro Restaurant. We ate outside and had a perfect view of the shoreline. We talked the night away and when I looked down at my watch it was 10:30pm and still LIGHT outside. We went back to the apartment and watched a little t.v. then went for a walk with our friend and her dog. She took us up about 10 flights of stairs for a spectacular view of Lake Huron. Then we walked a wooded trail that ended in a park and walked back to the apt. It was a long beautiful day and we turned in for the night.

Saturday we woke up pretty early, got ready and out the door before 9am. We met our friend for a quick breakfast and helped her out with the Dog and Pony Show. What a great turnout! We ended signed everyone up and gave them their numbers and then we got to lead the parade with banner. It was very unexpected and what great fun it turned out to be! Hopefully they send us some pictures. After the show we got to go horseback riding. And they offer unguided riding. So we got to take off on horses for almost 2 hours of wooded trail riding through the island. It was amazing. The horses were great! Which is hard to come by. We even got to trot and canter. That evening we met our friends for another delicious dinner. Then we headed out for a night at the walk-in movies. We watched Somewhere in Time starring Christopher Reeve. It was filmed on the Island way back when. It ended up being a bit chilly that night and we all cuddled under the blankets.

Sunday we decided to take a ride on our bicycles around the island. We stopped at the Butterfly house and enjoyed all the beautiful butterflies. We also climbed about 15 flights of stairs to see the Arch Rock. It was worth every step! What a view! We stopped a few more times at various spots to enjoy the scenery and take pictures. Then we came upon a snack shack and stopped for a soda and cookie. Feeling recharged we took off on the last leg of the ride. About 2 miles down we came around the side of the island and the wind was going against us. My batteries started getting really low and I was huffing and puffing. I thought I was going to pass out. My legs did not want to pedal anymore. It felt like I was getting nowhere. There was still another 2 miles to go. After what felt like eternity we arrived back onto Main street. Just in time for the Lilac Festival Parade. We put the bikes away and found a spot to watch the parade. The streets were lined with people and all the shops closed to participate in the parade. After the last float we decided to take a self guided horse and carriage ride around and through the island. I was in awe the entire ride. Mackinac Island is so breathtaking. I had the time of my life and neither one of wanted to leave.

2005-06-16T10:57:00.000-05:00

Mackinac Island

1 Day and Counting..

2005-06-15T15:50:00.000-05:00

Wow, where did the time go? It seems like I just got back from vacation. Now here it is, 1 day from now I will be on my way to Mackinac Island! I am so excited. I love road trips! I was shopping for a bicycle to take with me, but a friend loaned me one, so it just saved me at least $60! The nice thing about Mackinac Island is there are no motorized vehicles allowed. Which means we either have to walk, ride a bike to take a horse and buggy!

We were supposed to leave on Friday, but since it's an 8 hour drive, we decided to leave Thursday after work and drive as far as we could. Probably about halfway, then get a hotel and an early start on Friday morning.

I plan on taking pictures and will be posting them when I get back. Not much else has been going on lately. Just been catching up here at work. Finally all caught up and now I leave again! It keeps me on my toes!

2005-06-07T16:04:00.000-05:00

West Coast Choppers

2005-06-07T16:03:00.000-05:00

Jaws...

2005-06-07T16:02:00.000-05:00

Huntington Beach, CA

2005-06-07T16:01:00.000-05:00

Huntington Beach Pier

2005-06-07T15:53:00.000-05:00

Mmmm..California Artichokes

2005-06-07T15:52:00.000-05:00

My mom's shipyard. A view from the Harbor.

Quick Update

2005-06-07T15:31:00.000-05:00

It's been a while since my last update. Just wanted to let everyone know I came back from California. I had a really good time and as I expected, the time flew by entirely too fast!

I went to the Orange County Fairgrounds Swap Meet with my Mom on Sunday and shopped a few hours in the morning, before the crowds arrived and we bought alot of fresh vegetables from the Farmers Market. The artichokes were so big and beautiful I had to ship 2 of them back home! Unfortunately, my artichokes aren't scheduled to arrive until Friday. I can only keep my fingers crossed they make it safely to me and stay fresh.

Monday we went for a Harbor Cruise on a friends electric boat. It was a beautiful day. We cruised around for a few hours then went back home and had a BBQ.

Tuesday my brother and I went to Universal Studios Hollywood and we had a really great time! Since the kids weren't out of school yet, there were no lines and we zipped right through all the rides and attractions! I will post some pictures.

Wednesday I spent time with my best friend from H.S. Molly. She made us pancakes for breakfast, then we met her husband for lunch at Dave & Busters and played some pool. We walked around the mall for a little bit, then went back to her place. We talked and caught up with each other for several hours. Then we had dinner and it started to get late, so I let her get to bed and drove back home.

Thursday my brother and I hung out again and drove around Long Beach, where we grew up and checked out our old stomping grounds. On our way to downtown Long Beach we decided to visit the Long Beach Aquarium. It was Great and there were no lines! So we got to see everything and were out of there after only a few hours.

Friday I went to Knott's Berry Farm with my Mom and brother. We went on all the new rides. Our favorite was the Xcellerator. It was AWESOME! Very Fast and smooth, it actually gave me goose bumps! Again, there were no lines and we were done with the park by 4:00pm. We drove back home and had another BBQ. Yeah, we BBQ'd almost every night!!! We ate really good! Lots of steak and chicken and salads and vegetables! My mom is on the South Beach Diet, but by the way we ate, it sure didn't feel like a diet. I think I gained like 10 pounds too! I promised my mom I would give it a chance and try it when I got back home. I decided this weekend I would clean out the cupboards and get rid of all the sweets. So next week should be interesting. No sugars or carbs for 2 weeks. I have to get Susan to do it too, otherwise I might as well forget it!

Anyway, this was supposed to be a Quick Update. I have a ton of work I am trying to catch up on. If anyone wants to see my vacation pictures, just send me your email and I will send you a link. Otherwise, I will be posting a few pictures for all too see.

I would say this is pretty accurate

2005-05-26T16:22:00.000-05:00

Your Birthdate: May 26

Your birth on the 26th day of the month (8 energy) modifies your life by increasing your capability to function and succeed in the business world.
In this environment you have the skills to work very well with others thanks to the 2 and 6 energies combining in this date.
There is a marked increase in organizational, managerial, and administrative abilities.

You are efficient and handle money very well.
You're ambitious and energetic, while generally remaining cooperative and adaptable.
You are conscientious and not afraid of responsibility.

Generally sociable and diplomatic, you tend to use persuasion rather than force.
You have a wonderful combination of being good at both the broad strokes and the fine detail; good at starting and continuing. This birthday is practical and realistic, often seeking material satisfaction.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Something I should remember more often...

2005-05-26T15:21:00.000-05:00

Don't make your love a barter, Of gives and takes and exchanges,
Love selflessly.
Don't make your love a questionmark? Of whens? and whys? and hows?
Love unquestioningly.
Don't make your love a straightjacket, Of do's and don'ts an emotional bondage,
Give it space to breathe.
Don't make your love a condition, Of if and then and that is why,
Love unconditionally.
For true love gives selflessly,It doesn't question why?It lets you breathe,it sets you free, To feel its depths inside.
Don't make love a bondage, Don't clip the wings of love,It needs to grow it needs to fly, To conquer the clear blue sky.
So trust your love and set it free,.It will always be with you Don't put conditions and make it flee,Or you will wonder too- where has love gone??

Happy Birthday to me

2005-05-26T13:37:00.000-05:00

Yep, it's finally here...my LAST year in my twenty's! I must say the morning started out pretty crappy. Our customer relations chick told me on Monday that she was going to cater breakfast today for my birthday. It happened to coincide with the Rolling Thunder ride, but she told me it would be "in honor of my b-day". I was like "cool". So I didn't eat anything this morning and I didn't bring any oatmeal because I thought there would be food. So I get to work and log into my computer and decide to go check out the breakfast scene. I go outside and guess what? All the food was GONE! And I must say she was pretty rude about it too. She says to me "it's all gone, sorry about your luck". No happy birthday, no nothing, just a rude comment. So I turned around and went back to my desk, hungry and a little peeved.

About 15 minutes later my co-worker and friend Leetha came up to me with a homemade b-day cake. I was quite surprised she had taken the time to bake me a cake!! I thought it was a very nice gesture. And it came at the perfect time, as I was Starvin! So I ate like 2 pieces of cake for breakfast and I convinced those around me to eat it too! It was delicious!

I went to lunch with another co-worker today Patty. We went to the Moon Dog and I had Buffalo Chicken strips, which made me think of my friend Kat, as we always ate buffalo wings together. And I was sad she couldn't be here to join me. But I know she remembered me on my special day because she sent me an e-card and an email! Thanks Kat! The sucky part is we had to go to lunch at noon, because the "guys" are jerks and wouldn't let Patty leave at 1:00. So now we have 5 hours to kill before the end of the day!!! So here I sit, blogging, surfing the net and doing anything but WORK! I don't wanna work today. I want to go home and hide away from everybody and eat ice cream cake! LOL

You MUST check this out!

2005-05-25T15:48:00.000-05:00

http://demon.twinflame.org/psychic.swf

This is pretty accurate

2005-05-25T15:21:00.000-05:00

Your Extroversion Profile:

Cheerfulness: Very High

Friendliness: High

Excitement Seeking: Medium

Sociability: Medium

Activity Level: Low

Assertiveness: Low

How Extroverted Are You?

Indianapolis Fever Game

2005-05-25T12:25:00.000-05:00

Some friends and my wife took me to the Fever Game last night for my birthday. At first I wasn't really thrilled with the idea. Yes, I like women's basketball, but I haven't really watched it in a few years and last night the Season Finale of The Contender was on.

Turned out we had FRONT ROW seats, courtside and to the left side of the basket. I must say I was impressed with the seats. I have never been that close to a game and the ball almost hit me like 5 times! I ended up having alot of fun. Since we left right after work, we had to eat the food at the Dome. Susan spent $23.00 on: 1 hot dog, bottled water (for me) and fish and chips, soda (for her) and we shared a pretzel. Well we didn't really share the pretzel, because it was kinda hard and didn't taste very good. I ate a few bites and was over it. So I have this $3.00 bottle of water and it's not even a name brand and the bitch takes my CAP!!! I was like "can I please have my cap back?", she say's it's against the policy and that I could use it to throw in the court! I was like "If I wanted to throw something in the court, I'm sure I could find something alot better than a plastic water bottle cap". I was pretty unnerved by it, but I managed to get over it and tried to be very careful not to spill it!

We got home just in time to see who won The Contender. (Sergio "The Snake") I am hoping to catch it on re-run on CNBC tonight! They better replay it, or I will be a little upset!!

I'm really happy it's Wednesday. My boss is off today and I get to do whatever I want! Then tomorrow is my poopy birthday. I'm sure it won't be anything special. At least I won't be dissappointed when it's not. :-) Just another year...my last year in my Twenty's. Where oh where did my youth run off to???? I remember looking in the mirror and wandering what I would look like when I was 25, now I look in the mirror and try to remember what I looked like when I was 18!!! Go figure!

3 days and counting..then I'm off to Cali! My entire week is already filled up with things to do. But at least it should be a fun week and I will get out of this place for a while. I'm sure the time will fly by way too quickly, as it always does when your having fun. Never know, maybe I will love it back home and decide to move back. I'm definitely thinking about it. But I just have to wait and see how I feel and I will start from there.

2005-05-24T17:29:00.000-05:00

LOL...I had to share this one too!

2005-05-24T17:22:00.000-05:00

I thought this was pretty funny! I hope I'm allowed to put this here..it's copyrighted. I guess if they come for me..you won't be seeing anymore comics here..LOL

Demo Day

2005-05-21T16:14:00.000-05:00

Today was employee Demo day at work. We had to be there at 7am and breakfast was provided. Shortly after breakfast, we got to ride! First up was the Harley-Davidson Street Rod, new this year. I was a little intimidated at first. My toes barely touched the ground and this was a pretty big and heavy bike..not to mention it is the fastest bike Harley makes. I took it for a test spin around the parking lot then took off on the road. I rode with a co-worker, Craig and he had a pretty nice route planned. Lots of curves and probably about a 10 or 15 mile ride. I found the Street Rod to be kinda sluggish and hard to manuever. It has power, but it just wasn't what I expected out of this bike.

The second bike was the Honda CBR600RR. It was scary at first too. I must be really short, because again I was just tip-toeing on this bike. I took it for the test spin around the lot and off we went again. This bike was a turd, until you hit 7,000 RPM and that's when you hit the powerband and take off! Overall the bike was fun, but not very comfortable, not very nimble and not as quick as my SV650!

The third bike was one that I never really thought to ride. The Sportster 1200. They were just getting ready to put it away and I was like "Hey, I want to ride that". So I took it around the lot and giggled the whole time because it has forward controls and I kept putting my feet in the wrong place. But the bike felt Great! So I begged them to let me take it out and they agreed. So off we went again. I felt so cool on this bike. I think it was the comfortable seat and the forward controls. I felt stretched out and relaxed. I could even touch the ground! It was by far the funnest ride of the morning. It had great accerlation and handled the curves just right! I was in heaven. The whole time I had a huge grin on my face and at times I would laugh and scream (usually when I was hauling ass). I didn't want to go back! What a great bike! I never would have thought I would hear myself say "I love the XL1200". But I do, and one day, I'm just going to have to get me one!

Open Wide

2005-05-18T14:55:00.000-05:00

Today I went to the dentist..again. I had a root canal and a crown done over the last several weeks and it something I hope I never have to experience again. Today was just my cleaning and x-rays. My dentist handed me over to another hygenist and she was really nice. The first thing she asked me is: Are you married and do you have children? I was like..uh..yeah, I'm married and no I don't have any kids. So then it seemed like every question after that was about my "husband". And I wanted to tell her "I don't have a husband". But I didn't want to freak her out. And I didn't know how she would react. She seemed nice enough, but people can get weirded out. So I just answered all the questions as honestly as I could and tried to say "he" as little as possible. It drove me crazy! I am not ashamed or embarassed of who I am. But it was awkward. And every time I went to say something, I couldn't get it out. Oh well. I guess that's just something I have to deal with.

So it turns out I have 6 small cavities and 2 of my old fillings need to be replaced. Let's see I have already spent upwards of $1200.00 in the last month on my teeth and now 8 cavities!!! I told her it would have to wait until the end of June. So I better start saving my pennies!